Forever Young

I feel like..when I return to school as a senior, I'll feel so old. I mean, not old old, but relatively old. Because, if you think about it, when you were a freshmen, the majority of the people in school is still older than you. And then, when you were a sophomore, that majority decreases. And so on. Until you're a senior--then, the MAJORITY of the people in school will be YOUNGER than you. And this goes back to the double standard thing. For guys, it's fine, and sometimes even appreciated, because their dating pool increases. It's normal for guys to go out with younger girls. But when it happens the other way around, it's not always acceptable. Actually, probably a lot of girls don't care about that anymore in this day and age. But it's still a factor with me. I don't like to date people who are younger than me. If our age differ by months, then I might be able to make an exception. My point is, when girls become seniors, their dating pool drastically decreases to the older guys in their year whereas for guys, it's the other way around.

Why is being relatively young so important? Because you get treated differently. No matter what environment you're in, if you're among the younger people in that environment, then people tend to treat you with more...leeway. People are more lenient, have less expectations, and in general, are nicer to the younger people. This can be seen in school--freshmen, true, are given a lot of crap by everyone else, but I think that they're also better treated by their older counterparts. In the family, the youngest one always gets spoiled--getting whatever he/she wants. And lastly, in the workplace, where I've been this whole summer, I feel like I've been treated with a lot of leniency, not that I did a lot of things wrong. I just mean that, whenever I'm given a task, and I'm not sure what to do, I don't have to have an explanation for it. People know and expect me not to know how to do a lot of things because I'm young and haven't had a lot of experience. I'm sure if I were 5 years older, they would be like, "Why hasn't she had experience? Why can't she do this well?"

Younger ones of a group are seen as cuter and more innocent. Which is good because if you're a person who learns quickly, you'll surpass everyone else's expectations (or a lack thereof) and wow them.

In conclusion, it's awesome to be young. And, as we are slowly finishing one part of our lives (school), we're starting out another part--fresh, and young.

Something Stupid...

is a song by Robbie Williams, and it's cutest song ever...click here to listen.

Lyrics:
I know I stand in line
Until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance
I know that there's a chance
You won't be leaving with me

Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you

I can see it in your eyes
That you despise the same old lines
You heard the night before
And though it's just a line to you
For me it's true
And never seemed so right before

I practice every day to find some clever
lines to say
To make the meaning come through
But then I think I'll wait until the evening
gets late
And I'm alone with you

The time is right
Your perfume fills my head
The stars get red
And oh the night's so blue
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you
I love you...

Only on a show as awesome as Coupling would you hear a song like this.

The cast of Coupling.

And only on a show as awesome as Coupling would you hear the following terms:
-sock gap
-giggle loop
-nudity buffer
-NAT (nose avoidance tilting)
-assmare
-nudity switch
-VAA (visual access action)
-de-clench

Stacy's Mom

Holy crap! If you google "stacy's mom has got it going on", my blog is the 4th result!! How amazing is that!?!?!? Wow...I feel so public...

This means, if people knew that my blog, that H's blog, is named "Stacy's Mom Has Got It Going On", they can totally read what I've wrote for the past...4 months! Only...I don't think that many people knows that my blog is called that, except for the ones who read it. And if they already read it, there's no need for them to google it, which means, the people who don't read my blog but would like to, probably won't get to. Now I can't decide if that's a good thing or a bad thing... I suppose it's always good that my readership is increasing.

On the flip side though, I feel like I have to watch what I say more and more because more and more people are reading my blog. It started out with just a bunch of my close friends knowing about it. Then, after I put it in my AIM profile, everyone on my buddylist who read my profile know about it. After that, I put it under "website" on Facebook, so now all of my facebook friends potentially know about it. After that, I told all the interns and some co-workers about it in an introductory questionnaire. What's more? Whenever I comment on someone else's blog, whoever reads that blog can potentially come across to my blog... The potential readership is probably even bigger than what I've already included... It all gets very complicated.

Here's the thing...I feel like the more people I tell about my blog, the more constrained my posts are. Well, I just feel more constrained in terms of what I can and can't say. For example, I can't talk about people at work because some of my co-workers know about my blog. Do they read it? I don't know. Probably not. But there's still a chance that they could. Had I just kept my audience to my school friends, I could write about them, and there would be a very very small chance that they'd come across it (the only way is to type in "stacy's mom has got it going on" into google and click on the 4th link). When I say "write/talk about them", I don't necessarily mean I'm going to go behind their backs and say bad things about them, I just mean I can't say things as freely in general--good, bad,..etc....

BUT...the contradiction is this: I'm always trying to expand my readership.

So I think in the end, I just end up focusing on myself--what's going on in my life...etc. Hopefully that doesn't make my posts less interesting...

hm...you know, somewhere in my head I'm thinking: screw this, this is my blog and I'm going to write whatever I want!

Recurring Act

Fuck. I have this huge red pimple (pea sized, cannot possibly be missed) on my forehead. And guess what? IT'S BEEN THERE FOR 3 WEEKS!! Not 1, NOT 2, BUT 3!! THREE!!! It simply refuses to go away. I've practically tried everything--putting benzoyl peroxide on it, squeezing it, picking at it, wishing it gone...to no avail!! At times it'll shrink to a smaller size, but after a few hours, it always comes back big, red, and bulging. Ugh!!! Please please go awayyyyyyyy!!

I've already had to live through a whole week of staff meetings with it (where it met the CFO, met my boss, met my boss's boss, and many other important executives). Grr!! Now I'll have to go to a birthday dinner with it...

I think it has to do with my complexion. I have combination skin, which means the T-zone (forehead, nose) tend to get very oily while my cheeks tend to stay normal (not too dry nor oily). This is the worst kind of skin to have (the other two kinds are oily, and dry). Why? Because I can't use very harsh acne treating face washes since that'll make my cheeks very dry and start to peel. And if I use face washes that are too gentle, the acne will still be there....GRRR!